In my post, “blessings require change.” on September 30th, I shared how God gave me an opportunity to give my minivan to a family who needed it.
This is a follow-up, so the details aren’t complete here. If you have a few minutes to get caught up, click on over to the original post and read the background info.
It’s been suggested to me by a few people that I should/could just repair the van for $500 and keep it for myself, pocketing the insurance money. No way. Can’t do it. I specifically asked for this. And every. single. person who supported my request – especially the insurance rep and adjuster – did so based on my intent. My intent was grounded in that prayer I prayed on Friday, BEFORE the accident. I believe the Holy Spirit led me to pray that prayer:
(In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.) Romans 8:26
So. That prayer that made absolutely no sense at the time? Makes perfect sense now. I’m not trading this overwhelming blessing for a mere minivan. I’d rather have the blessing.
There are/were a few people who turned down the opportunity to participate in this process. There are/were a few naysayers. “Wouldn’t be prudent” kind of thoughts prevailing. To them, I say, “It’s okay. God doesn’t need your help. He’d LOVE your help. But he doesn’t need it. He can do anything.” (I’ve been praying and God is leading me to other people who can help. You get to stay in your prudent comfort zone, they get your blessing.)
There are people who think I made an irrational, emotional decision. Bwahahahaha!!!! Anyone who knows me even a little bit gets why the word “pragmatic” fits me so well. Still laughing.
I understand that I don’t have a vehicle. I get that. But I will. It’s okay. I don’t have “giver’s remorse.” I’m praying for wisdom, asking my mechanic for advice, asking people what they drive and how they like it, asking God to help me find a good value. I’ll get a vehicle. I just don’t have one today. Doesn’t make me irrational.
Just means I need to buy a car.
FirstHusband has respectfully requested that I NOT pray for anyone who needs a kidney.